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| Im writing in here because i know that no one ever uses xanga anymore. I also know that the person who this entry is about will never read this unless they still do care and willing to go out looking.
It is 5:13 in the morning and i can not sleep because i miss you so much. i miss your touch. i miss the feel of your hair. i miss your laugh. your little giggles that you do and then sometimes that big laugh that you make. i miss knowing when you go to sleep because you make this heavy breathing sound. i miss you twitching in the night because you are falling, and i am always there to catch you when you wake up. i miss you playing with me even if it doesn't have to be sexual. i miss your eyes that you might think hide so much, but yet tell your life story. i miss the pictures that you would take of us. i miss opening my eyes and seeing you looking back at me when we kiss. i miss those lips. i miss your Schmy sound. i miss how you would play with me before we went to bed. i miss listening to you text. i miss it when you say LOVE LOVE LOVE. i miss you asking if i fed meaty. i miss your cooking. i miss those looks you give me when i do something stupid. i miss you soaping up my back and saying that i am a girl cause i like the smell good stuff. i miss how comfortable we were. i miss staying up until 4 in the morning cause we are having so much fun. i miss your phone calls. i miss our little debates on which is better republicans or democrats (which we all know is democrats). i miss the music you listened too. i miss it when you would come home smelling of cigarettes. i miss waking up next to you. i miss you putting your arm around me in the middle of the night. i miss your bright sun shiny smile. i miss your weird faces. i miss it when you criss cross your eyes. i miss that little spot on your ass where you missed while tanning even though you got rid of it. I miss meaty. i miss being your valentine. I MISS YOU.
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| I have never suffered pain that makes me want to die. I have never felt
that kind of pain. all that has been GIVEN to me has been love. I
have abused that love and taken it for granted. thinking that my
perfect life will be handed to me on a platter. we have all thought of
that. that I wouldn't have to work for what I should get. fly through
life on the wings of someone else.
I realize that I was blind. blind to
the fact that life has to be worked at. I know that most of you who
read this will disagree with this next statement that I am about to
write, but in my heart I know that it is right. I am worthless. I have
taken advantage of golden opportunities. i know that what i have become
is but only what i have looked down upon. a disgrace. i am intelligent,
but not smart. i blame the choices that i have made. the only thing
that i can say is to follow what your parents and God has taught you. i
lost my way. i hope i can find it again.
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| Ok i am just going to say some random things because i can.
Techno is the best damn thing to happen to music in this day and age.
When ever i go running i pretend that there are bears chasing me. it helps me run faster.
I got drunk last night.
I heart Coronas
The only that is on my mind right now is why in the world is Seu Jorge singing in French
Can milk come from the breasts of chickens.
Why is it that love hurts and so does a swift kick to the nuts?
When ever women cum they make the goofiest faces.
I wish i was kissing someone right now.
If the marble slab is a ice cream place then whatever happened to eating marble.
Soy sauce is the worst thing for you.
So is papa johns pizza
But damn they are good
I hate Frats
I Loathe Sororities
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas is the best damn movie invented
Midwest Product is such a great band
So is Gnarls Barkley
Look them up now
Why the hell do i draw if i am the only person who looks at it
Dear God i need to go take a shower
Bush sux
I think Cheney would have been a better Prez
Ok Paul Okenfold is fucking awesome too
Hawaiian Punch tastes so damn good mixed with Vodka
I have so many tests next week
Save the dolphins, but butcher the cows
Do you ever feel like you were used because you are so damn sexy
I need to pimp my Caddy
I love cartoons
Internet is driving our relationships with one another apart
My iPod is making me deaf and i dont give a crap
Do i look black
Anime is sooooo weird
I would only go gay for Johnny Depp
Im hungry
And the last random thing-
i have a highlighter here that smells like bananas.
And that lady's and gentlemen is the random thoughts of Joe. Come next week we shall uncover the darkest regions of Africa
I wanted that to sound like a add. hahahhaha.
Write back and tell me which thoughts were the best. | | |
| To every guy that regrets hurting her.
To every guy who knows which girl he wants.
To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.
To every guy that actually listened.
To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in his face.
TO EVERY GUY THAT PRAYS THAT SHE IS HAPPY EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT WITH HER.
This one is for you...
Not all girls appreciate nice guys. There's not many left out there.... | | |
| The good guy lost. we always fucking lose. I had faith, i had the
willingness, i believed that happiness would happen, but it didnt. i
believed that she would be the one who would show me the way to the
purity of a relationship, but i was worng. The good guy always loses.
there is no hope, there is no point in being a good guy. they fucking
suck. you keep saying if we were in a different state of mind. well we
are, it has been more than a month since your tradegy struck. Now
another one has. i don't want soneone who doesn't want me and i know
that you don't. can we be friends, i have no idea if we can be. you are
on my thoughts when i wake up in the morning and you forget to even
call. it hurts deep, it will hurt deep for quite some time, but i am
strong. life must go on, without you. i gave up a lot for you. i never
even told you what i gave up, but it doesn't matter now. let me be.
don't play with my emotions or i will erupt. Thank you God for showing
me the way. BYE
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